Dream

As I had posted in the UMR Baptist Student Union Forums:

"10:00 pm. Much homework to do. I can't stop thinking about it, I really don't know what to do. So I figured I would share my dilemma, amongst those who rhyme. Perhaps I can get the meaning, if I give myself time.

So here it goes:

A few nights ago, I saw the play of Juliet and Romeo. I don't know if this is what caused my imagination to run with passion or if it was just me. But as I lay on my bed last night, I had a dream.

It was all in fun and was just hanging out with some friends. Suddenly I felt her lips upon my cheek. I can't describe the feeling I felt. It was so full of passion, so warm, so liquid and soft. I can still feel it now even when I close my eyes. I'm not sure I can say whether I had ever felt this feeling before. For once it felt more true and more noble than I have yet known. Another kiss on the cheek and afterward I turned and saw the one responsible and our passions met face to face. There was no desire or temptation for more (well to be honest I woke up after this point), there was just... such a peace. It was what it was: a kiss of true love. It did not need any more action to communicate the meaning. It did not demand anything and it had a certain fullness to it. It numbed my senses and I would say that it was saddening as well, but that is what I feel at the present, I can't recall if I felt it at that time.

So I guess I will offer this story as a hope for all you single people out there who are longing for a love that will be filling, pure, and noble. I realize how stupid it can be to try to manufacture this type of love. It cannot be manufactured, only lived. God's love has to be flowing through it and the two have to so simply be complicatedly in love with each other, knowing the one was created for the other and vice versa. It is a love and passion worth waiting for and not to be wasted on anyone else. As I write these things, I feel so hypocritical, because I am reminded of the things I have wasted, but I hope that this is a message of hope that God is designing you, whoever you are, for someone and that someone for you. It might take a while, but that's just God working out all the kinks and laying out all the plans; there is always room for second chances and new beginnings. And if it is anywhere close to what I dreamt, it will be way past totally knock your socks off awesome!"

Romeo and Juliet

Tonight, I watched the play "Romeo and Juliet." It got me to thinkin... just what does true love feel like? Indeed I know that it is more than a feeling, but there is a certain feeling one gets when viewing such romances as the above play. Someone once told me (I believe it was my mom) that true love does have that similar feel to it. And of course i know that with true love, sometimes the feeling isn't always there and the husband and wife remember their wedding day in order to stay true. They remember that covenant they made so long ago when they were in deepest love.

It is strange how today marriage is viewed as a drag, when it should be full of love and romance. I suppose that all depends on what both people put into it. But when people think of passion and giving into desires it seems to be in a pre-marrital relationship; that seems to be society's view of what "true" passion and "true" love is. "It will only last a moment, you have to take it now while it is here," it says. But wouldn't it take more passion, more love and more ... what is the word... Sacrifice to wait for that person to come into your life. Indeed and when the wedding bells ring all passions can be unwound and let loose and it can be full and lasting. Sure eventually one of the partners will pass on and sometimes that comes sooner than later, but to truly love with all the commitment that is involved, that must be something. To love someone, "until death do us part." That is truly a beautiful and awesome thing.

Love's Evening

This is going to be the blog where I right down all my random thoughts and possibly post a few of my pictures that I draw and such. So I guess I will start off with this past weekend's crazy (or intuitive thoughts).

My sister was driving me back home from watching "Epic Movie," (which is a terrible movie to see, but fun to talk about later). I noticed the evening star hovering over the sunset and was thinking about all the implications of this heavenly body. My sister asked, "Is that Venus?"

"Yeah that's Venus," I said. "I was just thinking about that very thing. I was also thinking how Venus is the goddess of Love. The planet is called the evening star when it is visible (as most clear evenings) just after the sun sets. It is also called the morning star, which is the brightest object in the sky just before the sun rises in the morning."

I continued to tell her my thoughts, which may be more complete here than they were at that moment. I had just a few weeks back gotten out of a relationship and I was pondering how the evening star is like love itself. It looks like the sun may be setting and love soon to disappear. Indeed the sky gets to the point where love (Venus) isn't visible in the night sky. The breeze is cold and all the other stars are shining bright and I wonder if the one I love, the one that I long for is looking at the stars at the same time I am and wondering the same thing. She may be someone with whom I am acquainted or may be someone I don't know at all, but I still wonder. Then I realize that even though I can't see it, love is still there, just visible on the other side of the world. But love will soon come again, heralding the end of the cold night and the beginning of a bright warm and new day. So hold on, even though you can't see it, love is coming. Don't lose hope, the one that was made just for you will appear at the proper time. Wait for it and never lose hope!